[Note from Michael: My client “Madelyn” has been keeping a diary since we started seeing each other, and she gave me permission to share some of her diary entries here. I’m touched and humbled that our sessions are having such an impact on her life. Thank you Madelyn, it is my honor—and PLEASURE—to support you! You are such an exquisite human–and I love our time together!
I am posting these in 2-month segments. Below are Madelyn’s diaries from March-April 2024]
3/21/24
During moments in my days since seeing Michael, I would imagine a few seconds of my two times with him and I would fill up again with magical feelings of renewal. It brought me back.
I have been in constant amazement since meeting Michael how alive I feel. I have opened up myself and it feels spectacular. I am not giving this up. It is too precious.
3/21/24
Lasting treasures….
The way your hair feels after being pulled (love it)
The slight blush from beard and hair on your skin (love it)
Being constantly engorged with desire (love it)
There are so many………. (love it)
It is hard to explain the awakened feelings I have. So far, they are constant. Was I shut down, or coping or? I want to feel this alive. I will make space for this. This is me.
3/22/24
Everyone else is noticing! Comments like “you look 10 years younger” or “you seem so happy” or “what have you been doing?”
So, MORE feeling and exhilaration and Michael. How did I get so fortunate?
3/23/24
I could not get to sleep last night until very late. I am a great sleeper. I was aroused (constant since I first met Michael).
I started masturbating. I have SO MANY new feelings that my body is being washed with. It did happen. I fell asleep. Michael is not just waking me up sensually. I feel my whole self-blooming with his encouragement. WOW and WOW and WOW!
I trust Michael to take me to places/feelings that I may never imagined. I am going. I am absolutely sure.
I realize that my constant accommodating and being flexible to all situations (great assets) have led me to be my quite self. Not anymore. What an incredible journey to be on!
3/24/24
I am much calmer this morning. I had a good sleep.
I am vibrating with anticipation for tomorrow. I have in my mind things to say to Michael and then when we touch, I am in another realm. Thoughts go out of my head and feeling comes in.
Michael is beautiful and being touched/touching him makes me feel more beautiful.
3/25/24
Have you ever wanted something for a very long time? And, when it did become a reality, it was MORE that you ever imagined. A lovely thing.
Have you ever felt renewed, revitalized and every part of your being awakening? A lovely thing.
Michael… a lovely human.
Thank you for us.
3/25/24
When I was younger my sensual tolerances for many places being stimulated at the same time was very low. I could not handle the sensations.
I do not feel that way today. I desire it and want to feel everything. If this is aging…….. bring it on!
3/26/24
Woke up in the middle of the night turned on! Visions of the time we spent yesterday just hugging me.
I love the visual of Michael going to open the window, his back to me and the sunshine glowing on his beautiful body with a huge hard on facing the sun. So lovely! Such a turn on.
This journey of self-care self-love I am on is so incredibly revitalizing. I actually feel different in all the best ways. My energy is fueled by the bliss I am experiencing. I believe in “being here now” however I am so looking forward to each second of Michael and Madelyn.
3/26/24
Today I had a massage with Alyssa who knows me very well and for many years. She has worked on my physical well-being and emotional health. She gets me. She was aware of my wanting to have sex. As soon as I walk into her room, she knew I had a sexual adventure. We just embraced and felt the goodness pouring out of me. She felt my body was renewed and we shared the lovely details of Michael. My arms were testy in places “I like to hold Michael as close to me as possible.” And Alyssa knew that was why. What a joy to share joy. Alyssa was so HAPPY and supportive. So lovely.
Then I went shopping for pink lipstick. I told the salesperson the line that Michael suggested I say, for fun: “I have a new young lover, and I am looking to add extra sparkle to my lips.” Light pink please….
She said, “Well then, let’s go find some!” and, we did!
3/27/24
I slept better last night. I did wake up at 4 with intense sensual sensations. I am not clear if it is an orgasm. I am going to call it my “hugs” because I curl up and caress myself and think about the magic of me and Michael. My clitoral orgasms are very different from what I feel with penetration.
Happy woman here!
3/27/24
I saw my lovely therapist, Jenny. She could feel my energy as soon as I walked in. She was so proud and happy for me. Advocating for what you need as a person/woman and making it happen is the best. I have always been a “dare to be different” woman and I knew deep in me that awakening of my life force/sexuality/sensuality and energy was important. I was not aware of how important. I feel alive from head to toe. My well is fuller and I can be there for people in a calmer way because my needs are being filled. I am truly amazed at the difference. The best gift ever!
3/28/24
I woke up at 4:30 for my “hugs.” I curl myself into a hugging ball and feel. I revisit intense sensations from Michael and I contract. It is lovely.
I keep singing “you are so beautiful”—mostly just that line. Michael is so beautiful.
I want to explore penetration feelings and clitoral feelings. My clitoral orgasms are explosive and my penetration euphoria feels very different. I have wondered if this is just me. It has been lifelong.
I am very happy I have created this space for myself.
Working to make this intention a reality took a long time. I am a patient woman but the beast has now been unleashed! SO HUNGRY and SO HAPPY!
3/29/24
I had my “hugs” at 4:30 this morning. I am welcoming the feelings because I need them and they make me happy. I am soooooooooooooooooo turned on from my journey with Michael.
I also feel relaxed because I will see Michael soon. And, I know there will be more because I am making it so.
I don’t completely have the words for how I feel transformed (a work in progress). Luxurious and luminous come to mind. I am so jazzed.
4/3/24
I am still unpacking yesterday. I had the very best sex of my life by miles and miles. I have never felt so much. It started from our first touch. I have a serene calm feeling. Satiated and lovingly ravaged. One of my favorite places in on top of Michael. I arch back to the incredible feeling of being filled with such intense sensation. Michael thrusts and I am euphoric and orgasm. Today I feel transformed. I want better words to describe this bliss…. they will come.
4/10/24
His deep kisses
His hands on my belly
His breath in my ear
His cock in my mouth
His grabbing my hair
His entering me slowly
Her bliss
4/25/24
Daylong experience together
Bliss
Heaven
Completely alive body
Beautiful Michael
I had extreme energy especially sensually/sexually. The fire between the two of us was delicious, intense and many times our two felt like one. I was orgasming for hours. I loved deeply looking into Michael’s eyes and touching his face and also having him deeply in me.
His body warmth sent me. The curves of his body sent me. His breath sent me. Sucking his cock sent me. I felt highly electrified and at the same time completely safe. Michael held me and our space so we could have this safe and amazing journey. I am very grateful and want to do it again. It is one of the best days of my life.
I felt incredibly womanly. All parts of myself showed up to be loved.
It is two days later as I write this. I am still tired. I am still incredibly happy. A life altering experience for sure. I am truly grateful that I sent the intention and that Michael came into my life
4/28/24
Big tears are coming now. I am so grateful to be held by Michael as I go through all the tough challenges at home with my husband and others. It gives me a luxurious perspective. It grounds me.
I still feel like I am detoxing from my years of sexual inactivity. My skin smells different. My bodily functions are getting back in tune. My breathing has been heavier (maybe turn on).
I have never orgasmed sucking cock either. So great! I love to look at Michael when I am sucking his cock. He is in the moment and blissful.
We listened to the Getz-Gilberto album with “Girl from Ipanema.” So beautiful—both of us listened to it regularly in different times of our lives. Poignant!
This morning, I feel very wiggly with body sensations and the beautiful possibilities in my life today and future. I feel this sexy, slutty, beautiful and kind “Madelyn” is more open. She is ready for more.
4/29/24
Sex exuding from every cell
Encouraged by love
The sexy slut come out
She has been hiding…. no more
Embracing feeling
Touching, being touched…. loving all
Letting it fill her
Sensual energy
Alive…. awake…. READY
For more…. more
I do own my sexy slut self.
[For Part 2 of Madelyn’s Diary, covering May-June 2024, click here.]